Well it’s official our first Mother’s Day is here. I’ve been a mom for 5 months now, and what an experience motherhood has been. I have allowed myself to feel all the things. I have been very real and transparent that motherhood ain’t all rainbows and sunshine 🌈 (you would know how I have felt if you read my blog or know me personally).😉If you know me, you know I keep it real and to be perfectly clear I haven’t been okay for awhile, but now I am in a much better place. I am better mentally, physically, emotionally, and spiritually. The whole bit baby.😏
I have never hated social media more for what everyone makes out motherhood and parenting to be and contemplating deleting it over and over again. Don’t get me wrong to each their own, but don’t be fooled y’all. Nobody can prepare you for how much changes with yourself, significant other, family, friends, etc… until you actually become a mother yourself. It is mind blowing.🤯 I am still in shock at how much has changed and get in my head about things that are different now. It is bizarre!
Reality Check
I really wish more people were open to being vulnerable and truly being themselves instead of what and who society wants them to be. What I mean by this is – I want people to stop being fake acting like it’s all good and happy all the time. No it isn’t. I want to read about the moments that are hard and how you overcame them or what you are doing! I must admit I have been guilty of this myself because it is hard not to; however, I have been off social media lately because I just don’t have anything good, real, or true to say so I’m like ehhh. I do have 🔥 pictures posts to post though. Maybe I will post them in the future. HAHAH. Do you know what I mean though? I am not saying never post pictures smiling or moments of happiness because we love those times and they are real, but why can’t people not be real about life? I am stunned and know that the days of people being real are probably never going to happen but a girl can dream. 💭
When I post I am not posting for attention, I am posting to let y’all know my truths and to share parts of my life with anyone who cares because life is meant to be shared and let’s be honest we aren’t fooling people by posting everything’s great all the time. It’s not. Think what you will about my words, and know that I am not being pessimistic. This is just the truth baby.
Any-who back to being a mama
I would gladly go through labor and delivery a million times over before I go through 9 months of carrying another baby. LOL! Pregnancy was and is just not it (for me). I am still in awe that you’re mine and I’ll probably never get over it. You are the most beautiful and precious little thing, my sweet Nevaeh. My literal slice of Heaven (if you don’t get this look at Nevaeh’s name backwards)!😉 I am so thankful for you. I truly am soaking it all in and I couldn’t be more elated to be your mama. I love love loveee you. If you read all of this you are an awesome human. Have a wonderful day and love your mom because being a mom is the hardest and best thing ever. ⭐️
“Quick babe take a picture of us looking off into the distance in front of my car”
Daddy spoiled me with yellow roses and money for whatever my heart desired. He knows the way to mama’s heart and made the weekend special! 🔑❤️🌹He also made me breakfast and took care of baby girl while I took a nice shower and got ready without having to feel rushed to get back to sweet little sunshine. If you’re a mom you know the days of privacy are over. Pretty much every time I go to the bathroom or shower she’s there in her bouncer or nearby so she can hear/see her mama. She needs eyes on mama at all times HA HA!😂 Yellow is my favorite color and I rarely go shopping for myself anymore these days. Shopping nowadays looks like me buying diapers or an avocado at the grocery store 🥑 or the occasional unnecessary candle at TJ Maxx because you can never have enough candles🕯Am I right?
I work as a Temporary Dental Assistant now. The day after Mother’s Day I was scheduled to work and at the end of the day was given $50 by the doctor and he just said, “Happy Mother’s Day!” I couldn’t believe it. This generous act caught me off guard and made my whole day. I had a stupid grin on my face the whole way home 😊 It is little things like that in life that we need to do more of for others – to let them know they are indeed valued (It can be $5 to Caribou/Starbucks/Dunkin, balloons, flowers, a card, a candy bar. LOL just something)! This made me feel so loved and appreciated. I was there for one day and was blessed immensely! The day after this I got another $100 in the mail from my birth mom wishing me a Happy first Mother’s Day. Again, I was caught off guard and just blown away by the kindness of her. This type of thing has been happening to me for the past month and I have been in awe. I am so blessed and just wanted to share about the first Mother’s Day!
My Facebook + Instagram Posts
“Nevaeh you are my literal slice of Heaven. Nevaeh’s name is Heaven backwards. Today feels like a second birthday to me. I was stunned at my phone this morning receiving messages, texts, and calls wishing me a Happy Mother’s Day! So sweet🥲 Yes you’re eyes aren’t deceiving you, that is my real hair. It was important to me to be my true self today – becoming Nevaeh’s mom has helped me to embrace my natural beauty. I decided to wear mascara today for the first time in months. I never wear foundation/makeup anymore because she constantly grabs at my face and I just want to rub my face all over those cute chubby cheeks. It’s refreshing actually. I am so happy to be a mama today and everyday, but especially today for our first Mother’s Day! I am never going to get over your huge morning smiles, our dances in the living room, holding your super soft hands, seeing you grab onto mama, being goofy and making funny noises to make you giggle, our morning and night time rituals, you sitting in my lap while I comb your hair right before bed by the fireplace, napping together with your tiny little body all balled up on my chest, your sweet little arms and hands that reach for me, seeing your face light up when mama and dada come home from work and picks you up, watching you play with a new toy, seeing you melt into mama’s arms and just be content, and of course kissing you all over. Watching you grow into your own personality has been exhilarating, my heart just can’t take it. I am in awe of what my body made… Some days may be harder than others, but I know the hard days are temporary and at the end of those days you still love me the same. What’s it like being your mom? It’s the best thing in the whole world. I love being your mom baby girl. Happy Mother’s Day to all the mama’s.🥰”
I AM A STRONG MOM RAISING A STRONG MIGHTY LITTLE ONE.
Look at how beautiful they are. My little family of three. Joshua, Neaveh, and me.
My Prayers for my baby girl:
Add “I pray that she will…” in front of every statement
- Always stick up for herself and what she believes in and never apologize for the way she feels ever
- Have uplifting friends that will steer her in the right direction and support her dreams/aspirations
- Use her brain to do good in the world and to others and also to make good decisions
- Find and do something that she is extremely passionate about and that sets her soul on fire
- Stay happy and healthy – protection over her mental health that she will be truly joyful
- Have a healthy body with all working its parts and no sickness/diseases
- Feels worthy of love and not let any man treat her wrong
There are many more prayers that I could add to this list, but these are just to name a few!
xoxoxo, I’ll catch you in the next blog😘
